Alison & Ken’s wedding this weekend was my very last big wedding. I actually have a full day intimate wedding this Friday – from getting ready to dinner – with a small group, but that’s definitely closer to the elopement side of things than the full on wedding side. Sunday was my last actual full day, 100+ person, dance party-type wedding. Usually on my way home from a big wedding, I immediately start thinking about the next one – the next Saturday or Sunday I have to work, the next place I’m traveling to. It was such a strange feeling to not have another big, weekend wedding to look toward. I only have one Saturday I have to work – and no Sundays – for the rest of the year. (Although my weekdays are jam packed.)
This is what I wanted – I wanted to find a way to be a weekday wedding photographer, because I missed spending weekends with my husband. I can’t believe that day is here – I am beyond thrilled to be able to make weekend plans with friends and family again; to not miss out on important things in the lives of those close to me. But it’s also a little bit sad for me, because I do genuinely love weddings, and I love the people who have allowed me to photograph theirs. So there is a little piece of my heart that is broken that those days are over. I love elopements – it is 100% what I was put on this planet to photograph – but photographing weddings has been very special for me.
There was this moment on the dance floor at Alison & Ken’s wedding when I was getting all these hilarious photographs of everyone dancing – of course while I sang along behind my camera – and it suddenly occurred to me that I will never do that again. I will never get to be in the middle of a giant wedding dance party – always one of my favorite parts of the day – and I found myself getting completely choked up. It sounds silly, but it’s just one of those things that I’ll miss so much about weddings.
I just really wanted to take a moment today and say THANK YOU. Thank you to everyone who has allowed me to photograph their wedding over the last few years. I can honestly look back at my wedding clients, and there’s not a single bad apple in the bunch. I have loved you all so much, and have had so much fun documenting each of your days. Thank you for allowing me to capture the most intimate moments of your lives. Thank you for trusting me with this monumental task, trusting my instincts as a photographer, and allowing me to be creative. Thank you for always making sure I get fed, and for all the thank you notes you’ve sent me over the years. (And now I’m crying. Crap.) I have laughed with you and cried with you and so many of you have stayed on in my life as friends. My life would be totally different without you all, and I am a completely changed person because of you.