This coming August, I will have been steadily blogging for four years. This specific blog begins in July 2010, but I began blogging in August 2009 on Blogger, and then switched over to WordPress the following year. I have vacillated between being very open and sharing a lot of personal stuff to being a bit of a closed book in the last six to eight months. (This also culminated in me deleting my personal Facebook, and only using my business Facebook page. Truly one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.) I really struggle with how open to be on here – and I always assumed most people were here for the photos more than anything else, and so personal posts wouldn’t be missed. Then I did the reader survey last month, and over and over again people said, “Write more personal posts. We miss reading about your life.” I was so shocked by that.
Now I need to figure out how I feel about that and what I’m willing to share about my life. It’s not that I have any crazy secrets… it’s just that I don’t want to live my life online, if that makes sense. (And frankly, this business is mostly my life right now, so there’s that.) There are two parts of me – one that very much wants my readers and clients to feel like they know me; and one that just prefers to keep to herself because she’s not that interesting, and let her photographs do the talking. I need these two sides to meet somewhere in the middle. The funny thing is that I’m not really any different off the internet – if you are my husband or one of my best friends, then you know literally everything about me. But everyone else only gets little pieces. I’m just a very guarded person in general – especially the older I get – and there are a lot of valid reasons for that. I don’t think that will ever really change. (When I started a personal blog in 2011, it only lasted a few months before I had a panic attack about my life being online and deleted it.)
But me saying all of this to you right now is actually a big step in removing a piece of the wall that I have around me. I am going to bring back more personal posts, and figure out what “personal” means to me. I do want you to get to know me a little bit better. I guess I just need to figure out where to draw the line and how much of myself I’m comfortable sharing. You know… the internet is forever. And forever is scary.
Where do you draw the line between your public and private personas? Are you an open book or are you a bit more guarded? Why?